In Her Shoes is a bookish meme invented by Vanya at YA Story Teller. To participate, simply put yourself in the shoes of a heroine you've recently read about, and then tell what you thought of her, what you would do in her stead, or what you've learned from her.
Sarah was... I don't know where to start. She was flawed, that was for sure, but in a way that she had no influence over. She was living in fear all her life, caged like an animal by her fear, her father and even her brother. She had no options and wasn't allowed to make any decisions. As a result, she wasn't the funniest or happiest person, not even considering everything, neither was she particularly smart or strong-willed -- so she wasn't a cliché heroine at all.
Sarah tried to make the best of what she had, sticking to routines to keep herself safe, mind and body. Yet she was so desperate to break free, but without any confidence she could make it on her own. She (understandable) always relied on others, and tried to be invisible the rest of the time. But she never stopped dreaming, hoping, so she wasn't totally weak either.
When she started into her relationship, it was both daring and desperate, I guess. She took a leap of faith as far as she was willing to go, tried spreading her wings without asking for help. She was too scared to let anyone it, although the battle she fought against her father was more her brothers than her own. Well, she had her own too, against her brother in some sorts, and for what she wanted. But it wasn't nearly as hard for her as it was for him, I think.
In the end, she lost both, brother and lover, and I do believe part of the fault lies with her. She was too afraid of all the bad things that could happend, and her "normal" was such a terrible horror that she didn't really see all the bad things that were already happening in the right way so that it would have led her to the right decision.
I'm wondering if that makes her an antiheroine? I get the feeling it does..
Well, what do you think? And please link up and let me know whose shoes you stepped into this week.
> read my review of Flawed